Having failed in the ASEAN Scholarship twice for the last 3 years, going for interview now is like "Sigh, I'm going for another interview.... AGAIN." Not to say that I'm boasting about my past experiences or what, but these 2 failures were devastating to me. They were like tsunamis crushing on me, a wave after another, leading me to a mental breakdown. I was so confident when I stepped in the room, felt better after I stepped out, but as time flies, no notifications whatsoever, only then I get to realize I was not selected. I tried to convince myself, the letter might be late, I'll wait till tomorrow. Day after day, moment by moment, I had to accept the fact. BRUTAL. Until now I don't seem to know what those interviewers want, so I was kinda facing a hard time trying to prepare for the scholarship.
Nevertheless, I was strong. I was not intimidated by failure, but I learnt from them. Sir Isaac Newton once said: "I did not fail in my experiments 1000 times, I just found 1000 methods how they should not be carried out. "
Yes, I did not fail, I learnt ways not to behave in an interview instead, and I will NOT repeat them ever again. Since then, I had some more interviews, and thank God I succeeded in some. These helped me rebuild my confidence a lot, plus my experiences in various competitions and forums, I matured and grew. Now, I guess I'm prepared, there's no way not to be at this point of time.
Of course, nothing can happen without the help and guidance of God. Every time when dealing with problems, be it an exam, a sickness or even a conflict, I asked for His help. I prayed, and he answered. I just knew that no matter where and when, or whatever trials I face, He would lift the troubles up off me. He is Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, my Saviour and my everlasting friend.
So now that I'm prepared and have regained my confidence, it's time to enter the ring. Well, what can I say? Just bring it on, and I'll bring you down.