The last day of 2011..... Everything seems to pass by faster each year. What should I do, time just can't slip away this fast, can it? I mean, I am officially Form 5 after a couple of hours, and that means SPM is near, and when SPM is near, that means graduation is near, and if graduation is near, that means college/university is near, and if college/university is near, I should be sure of what field would I be studying, and I haven't really thought about that yet! Well in fact, I have, but I still couldn't make up my mind! What if after studying I don't like it? What if after finishing my studies, it's hard to get a job in that field? Then, if no job = no money = no family = no dignity = no future = no LIFE. Time creeps by silently without me noticing, and I had foolishly spent the days on my life.
At this point of time, when I feel so helpless, desperate, and blank, let me quote a Bible verse for self-comforting:
Mt 6:34-"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. "
I do this all the time. Self comfort using Bible verses, very efficient indeed. However, that seems so true, what can we do without God's will? Every breath we take, every blink of an eye, every twitch of a muscle is a blessing of God. Who knows when is the Last Day, nobody knows, not even the angels,only He knows. Rumors state that 2012 will be the end of the world, I doubt it, I challenge it, I say: 2012 is NOT the end of the world! Because nobody knows, not even His angels, how then, would men know? I wonder which fool started this FAKE and UNTRUE rumor? This "fool" certainly has a thing in Maths, but please, sometimes life is about faith, and trust and submit, don't you get it? We could never use the Scripture to prove the authenticity of happenings, but only can we use the happenings of the earth to prove the authenticity of the Bible, as the Bible, which is inspired by He Himself, is NEVER wrong.
Well, men can plan things beforehand, of course, but the key towards fulfilling it is no other than the permission of God. Things happen out of the blue, when we never expected it, and of course when we never planned of that to happen, and that's the moment when we can experience the wonderful will of God. I thank God for everything that has happened to me in year 2011, no matter good or bad, bringing joy or sorrow, for I know that behind every happening is a will of God. Therefore, never will I murmur or question but to rejoice and give thanks.
In year 2012, I would hope for nothing more, I would want nothing more, I shall not worry, I shall rely, I shall entrust, I shall embrace and treasure every single thing for I know it is from Him.
In year 2012, I resolve to be a better person - a better son, a better student, a better brother, a better friend, a better servant, a better me - even better than before.
In year 2012, a brand new beginning, may the ugly side of me perish and may my beautiful side bloom and shine and continue to imply the goodness of God in every single thing I do. May I be able to glorify His great name and be of sufficient courage to speak of His words.
In year 2012, I wish the best to you, and to all whom I have known, and whom I have not known. May the abundant grace of God shower upon us, may the almighty hand of His protect us and gives us peace, may we be filled of His Holy Spirit, that He shall dwell within us, from now until forevermore.
2012, a new year, a new start, a new me.