It's really took me some time to consider before writing this post. Exam is 2 days from now and I'm still blogging.... But, since it had been a long time since i last posted, I'll make this one quick, I guess.

I shouldn't really start this post, I'm getting more and more guilty as I continue to type along. Never stop what you started, that's my style, so not going to stop until I am complete. :)

I've been thinking a lot lately, so I had lots to say. I've been examining myself, I guess I am still the same, no big change. O' Lord, I am sorry I can't hold on to my promises, I've disappointed you repeatedly. I asked for second chances again and again, and let those chances go. I feel strengthless now, and lost. I don't know what to. I am not sure if any "second-chances" are available now (mostly no, because I've probably used them all up), however deep inside me I hope that there are still some.

I always wanted to change but every time I tried I fail.

I really need your help. Please